Burn Baby Burn....

Burnout is setting in. It's getting harder and harder to control each day. I can't wait until summer when I don't have to think about practicing as much. That's the only thing I really hate about my major. I love playing the horn, I just hate practicing it. As soon as I get in the practice room, I start ripping myself a new one and thinking I suck, when really I know I don't, I'm just really hard on myself. I get frustrated and want to quit. Damn my competitiveness!

I would also like classes better if I didn't have to take Music history and Aural skills. Theory isn't so bad in more, it's getting kinda fun. Seriously though, when I'm standing in front of a bunch of high school brats are they really gonna care that Johannes Brahms wanted a piece of Robert Schumann's wife Clara? I don't think so! I know, I know, music history will help me know what style and tempos to use, but Grrr....right now it seems that all my classes are music with no education...

I just keep telling myself all I have to endure is 6 more weeks....the longest 6 weeks ever! Then I get to work my ass off all summer (with a break for Gatlinburg!) move in to the apartment and start the whole thing over again (minus theory and piano!)

Enough ranting/bitching for now...